Well after about 6 months of editing, recording countless times, working 4 jobs, and getting to a level of sleep dep I had never reached I finished my latest video. Thanks to Evolve for scoring it + Loop Goat helping me film. It’s called “Screenage Angst”, hope you’re down!
life is a loading screen death is the program aim off screen reload unlimited rage invincibility mode it’s like a joke at first but then it’s all happening for real in real time, in real life all morbid and psychologically distorted fireworks and birthday cards, christmas cards and valentines, all becoming rubble of the mind 18 and up to run the fucking gauntlet they tore down that 28 dollar sex motel behind white castle down like it was haunted days go by like meter minutes withdraw deposit ever had a dream that had it’s own landscape? Like a place where dreams happen at different times in the past tense, but non linear so it could be any tense but ironically its tense like creepy everything hazy and artificial looking always out of reach like a painting of a place you’re going. a place you’re going, but never there. violent symbols falling inward spinning in pixelated fire thinking of a promise you just forgot to keep drive is just drive like potential is just potential its nothing till its something in the eyes of another there’s an alarm outside at the intersection for blind people to cross the street and you can hear people pushing the button over and over to make the light change faster but its not connected to anything, just a placebo of or a symbol of control drunk bros latenight screaming for a taxi dude in a bubble coat vowing to kill nobody cares, cops don’t come here but little kids still talk shit remain alert, remain in motion DEvelop inertia punch a brick wall, pull ups on the street sign grime deposit, the shit is too frightening in real time to pause it, roll with it it doesn’t bring any sense of deeper relaxation to be floating on a planet as a piece of conscious dust just Super Bowl halftime latex orgy confetti on hobo barf salad and piss cutting up pills with credit cards for college in the debt grip hours in a glowing box taking the bus to the new casino with 30 dollars to spend enough to feel disappointment but not to be devastated shit show jimmy buffets margaritaville transcend random generator and focus on the lights the oxygen tanks the judge judy slot machine the starbucks the dealers 86 fucks given minimum wage like whats up bitch and we’re all like oh hi what can we get for you think of ouroborus like a tattoo on a body permanently stuck, but sometimes we forget the cycle of the cycle of the shit you don’t remember till ur dreaming and its happened later on there’s caves in the desert where they hide nuclear waste there’s caves in the desert where they stockpile american cheese people act like they didn’t know that salsbury steak is hell grody ponies and bone charcoal frying sawdust in plastic fat bloody guts become gray like oatmeal in the vat you ever accidentally watch a death video on the internet? you never used to be able to do that daydream dancing in the dark everybody strobing flashing memories, time going faster trapped in the same little gray zone nothing feels real because nothing ever happens and it goes on for so long you forget what living even feels like wake up the same with a midwest glaze resenting those who escape and awarding those who stagnate good old boys with loose jowls turkey neck vietnam vet, jimmy rigging shit like a trainset built by schizophrenics living in they moms basement take meds and breathe deeply eyeballs look noided completely that awkward moment when you lie down with another person and you remember how to feel totally alone a million acres of corn and roadkill don’t get old and die like that just go live the fucking dream it doesn’t matter how hard it is living dreams are worth some pain this is alchemy with nothing but a fake name this is alchemy with nothing but a screen
New book or written work / live set transcriptions of 2012 available online
Jim Swill - Peanuts and Coke (APRx 2012)
Filmed on iPhone, edited on iMovie, Contemporary DIY cinema.